What I miss

Why am I always the last to know or the last to figure something out? Why am I so restless in my life. Most people are happy going to work, coming home, walking the dog, going to they gym and the grocery store then back home. I'm not...I never have been...I'm so restless here. For those who don't know about a year and a half ago I decided to leave Houston and start teaching at a school in my home town. I went from metro city life to extremely small town life. I do love where I'm from afterall, it's home. I like to visit here...that is it's appeal...it's my roots but I've outgrown this place and need to spread out more. I miss Houston. I miss the city and the lights and the noise. I miss having somewhere to go late at night other than a bar. I miss being able to walk downtown and listen to the traffic on the freeway. I miss all of it...I love home and will visit often but i'm ready to move on and be back in the city...somewhere...not sure if its Houston another state or what but I miss it that excitement alot. *SIGH*

It's Been A While

I have not written in forever. I told my best friend the other night that I don't make sence when I'm not writing. Evidently even he realizes that. He informed me that he can tell by my mood how long it has been since I have written anything. I wanted to slap him and ask him then why don't you ever say anything....sometimes I just can't think of anything.....I know he would reply that I could never be at a lost for words but yes I could.

I'm going to try to start writing more. I hope my muse comes to me. I have been playing around in my journal but i'm not posting that yet it's still too rough...very rough...anyway...cheers and here's to a good year and lots of inspiration to write about.

I saw you last night

I saw you last night

I could hear your laugh and feel the warmth of your smile.

I saw you last night.

I gave you a hug you were really there.

I saw you last night

When I saw you last night.

it was as if you never were gone.

I saw you last night.

We were lauughing, giggling and gosiping.

I saw you last night.

I felt your hair to make sure you were real.

I saw you last night

I thought you were a dream

I saw you last night

It was like that night never happened

I saw you last night.

and for a moment my world stood still

I saw you last night

and for a brief second this hole in my soul was gone.

I saw you last night.

And this morning you were still gone.

For Sonny

For Sonny
Cherrish every moment. don't
ever let anything go unsaid...as long as it's worth saying...

you always had a smile and a hug
your laughter filled a room.
i met you when life was simple
and we lived for the moment
times that we all may secretly wish to go back to....

I remember the day I met you, I thought....how in the world is he tiger's brother...you guys were so different yet so much the same....looking at
me and my sister now it all makes sence.

i'll always remember that night when you got that tat...I think we were sitting in the merle bruce dorm room and cherry used a needle and indian ink...i thought that was the baddest tat i'd ever seen. i still think about that thing when someone talks about tattoos.
i'll remember the day you told me you wanted to marry becca....i was so excited for her... i knew she would flip....
i remember wishing i could go to utah for the wedding. i remember talking to you guys in pheonix....i remember when you came home.....the sound in your voice.....talking to you at the hopsital....i remember when you realized life goes on and you came to nac with tiger....I went and watched you guys play ball. I never though about it till now but i'll never forget that ball game now or the ride in your jeep...it's kinda funny i own one now...maybe that jeep obsession is your fault too (not just my dads) even though i never thought about it...till now...I tried to find you guys when i moved to houston...i never had any luck...that was the first time ever i couldn't find either of you...

it's funny how life goes on but people stay with you in your heart forever...you and tiger were both that way for me. You guys just had a way of making my day better. God dropped you guys in my life only for a second but you changed me for good.


i remember....i'll always remember.......

heavens a better place with you but this place just doesn't seem the same knowing your not here...

For Granny Bess

For those of you who know me Granny Bess passed away last night. She was not my "real" grandmother but she was the closest thing to one i'd had since elementary school. When my grandmother died; she took me to Houston to spend the week with her. She is probably why I call Houston home and why I miss it when I'm not there. She was a fighter. For those who don't know her she was 98 years old and sharp as a tack. She remembered so many things. I remember listening to her talk about old friends who had gone before her. Listening to her tell stories and make us laugh. We miss you granny bess and we will always love you. Save me a seat I'll see you on the otherside. Love.
Robin